http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20091214/ap_on_go_ca_st_pe/us_female_veterans_finding_a_place

wanted to share this story. i believe women vets should be accepted just as much as the men, the fight and work just as hard. the double standard should be long gone by now.

hey all. it's me amy. first of all, im not very good at telling my feelings. having ptsd since a young age and having to grow up before anyone should, i've learned sorda like my own survival guide.  for starters i dont trust easily at all. i constantly have this huge wall up and i dont bring it down for anyone new in my life. the only person i bring it down for is my husband and i dont even do that often. i rarely ask for help with anything as i am used to always having to depend on me and no one else. when i am offered help weather its emotional or just with the dishes, ill accept it then feel like i should be doing it and wind up feeling bad. i've always been good at taking care of everyone else but never been to good at taking care of my self. i find that if you dont have to depend on anyone else then you wont get dissapointed when they let you down. i know that this is'nt the way i should think or be, but honestly its all ive ever known. trusting people and letting others in is like going to a forign land for me. so i dont know how often i will post here, but know that when i do it takes ALOT of courage on my part. just writing this is making me antsy and i already want to hit the delete button. but i told myself i was gonna do it and im not one for quiting when i commit to something. sometimes i may post good stuff or it may be very dark more than likely it wont be pretty...well i think im just gonna go ahead and say goodbye for now. big hugs to all

Angel Amy